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A Fear of Flashing Light

by Paul Lesinski

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    This is my first ever solo CD. Some of the tracks were written a couple of decades ago and others are brand new. Stylistically it's a good representation of my musical tastes - a little bit of straight rock, a little progressive, and some lighter material too. This digital version comes with a 12-page PDF booklet loaded with artwork, complete lyrics, credits, who played what, etc.


    I am making the downloadable CD available for free but if you want to help offset the cost and/or provide monetary support, feel free to kick down a suggested $5. (Or more. Or less. But don't worry too much about it - my main goal is for people to hear this music, not to make money). When you go to download the album, a box will pop up asking you for the amount. If you want it for free, enter "0." I hope you enjoy it! --Paul
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    Would you rather have a physical CD in your hands? For $5 (shipping included), you'll receive your CD in a full-color 4-panel sleeve. The purchase price also includes an immediate download of the 12-track album and digital booklet in just about any digital format you could possibly desire. If you are feeling super generous, you have the option to name a price higher than $5 but again, no worries. Thanks!
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  • Full Digital Discography

    Get all 7 Paul Lesinski releases available on Bandcamp and save 40%.

    Includes unlimited streaming via the free Bandcamp app, plus high-quality downloads of Between the Lines - Rob Barteletti and Paul Lesinski, New Worlds - Rob Barteletti and Paul Lesinski, PLB Live!, What You Hold Near, Old Becomes New, Hearts & Reason, and A Fear of Flashing Light. , and , .

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1.
The Garden 03:41
2.
Wondering Why We’d meet some nights ‘neath the streetlight beam when the town had all gone down We’d hop into my crapped out car and drive right out of town She’d tell me she would go all out - do the whole nine yards Depending on the things I said, the way I played my cards We camped outside beneath the sky, the stars were pins of light She said she’d guide my every move and make it all all right Show me smoothly what to do and where to place my hand I found myself in heaven again, off in another land All my life - Wondering why - All my life The naked night surrounded us, full moon the only eye We’d often lay and talk of love or turn and smile and cry But now that place is brown and bare, the vows all turned to lies So now I drive on silently across this bridge of sighs She’s been gone for two years now tho’ my memory’s sharp and clear I recall her touch and scent, the taste of every tear Driving all alone these days I’ll look to the night sky I’ll see the stars we used to own and stop and wonder why All my life - Wondering why
3.
The One 06:14
The One Miles from one of a hundred stops and that haze of anticipation drops And as western frames bleed through the panes, we chase each other through the splitting crops And the wheels revolve towards your sunken town, sick feelings inside say you won’t be around Still haven’t learned that when you’re burned, you can sense the type of flame just by its sound And no matter what I say – No matter what I do The dreams they fade to grey – Still I’m without you Still I’m without you Hissing tracks on the wet roadside, and the crumpled piles of small ones died The machine it turns and the brain it burns with a thousand tears of maternal cries Yet I’d give my arms, my legs, my head to sleep just a neighborhood from your bed But in word or song the time is just as wrong, and I’ll be sleeping alone instead Thought you were the one, Thought you were the one Fall, crawl stand and run, Thought you were the one, one, one Try to sleep off the drudgery, to not put you into the A to B So my feet touch down and your nowhere found, and I don’t have to look for a hanging tree ‘Cause you’re in my head with my heart unfed, I turned you into my daily bread It’s a chance I’d take, it’s a bond I’d break, but I guess I’d better try to mend instead
4.
Voices 05:20
Voices The missionaries were gone - doors left open, lights are on And the sound of rocks on water filled the air The night it hung like a shawl - heartbeat slowing to a crawl As they gazed in wonder - soundless thunder and all To stand in wait for the sound of the boatman's call The day began just the same as the one before, was not so strange Then the word spread 'round by word of mouth and flame And they started falling in pairs - the rest stood 'round unaware But the world was changing, rearranging for sure Round the fires stared the eyes of the pure And the night made a sound like a hundred million voices screaming out And a world of holy wrongs were set upright And riding out of the haze - backlit white light through the maze Came the horses drawing platforms loaded with flame And blazing into the sky, celebration with some hell fire As the chosen few separate from the pack Bade farewell, moving forward not back And the light that followed was great, and those that fear the coming change Have to step aside and make a way for the now New tracks to lay, ah, new fields to plow
5.
Walkin 04:44
Walkin I’m looking through a thousand years, I’m looking through a mirror I’m searching for some truth and light, but you’re using all my fear Were you hardened by the elements, misshapen by the times Used to be so innocent, naïve of all your crimes I have known you all my life Walk the dusty road in line I have known you all my life Far beneath the moonlit shine People long to see you in that old familiar way They don’t know that rail you road slipped to yesterday Some would say it’s brutal and others say it’s fine One more nail and one more shot, so black you start to shine Now you walk the center line, seen beneath the pale And the state lines pass you by, much closer to the grail And your boots they kick the dust underneath your feet And I’m waiting in the rocks for the moon we set to meet
6.
Shouldn’t It Be Different Some nights I crawl out of my window Sit on the cover of my house Lay back and watch the moonlit clouds go rolling by They are so quiet they are loud Out on the Bay one of those barges inches by How’s he gonna fit under that bridge? Makes me shake loose every single peak and valley Of all our shining streets and all our dark weird alleys Now she’s dancing on dawn, She’s walking on water Makes me think that I could’ve been a better man Ripping up miles, Soaking up firelight Shouldn’t it be different And if somebody asked me why Not like somebody ever did I’d turn and look at you with mirrors in my eyes And say some games they aren’t worth the win A different place a different time Different motive, different crime Frame of reference, frame of mind Shouldn’t it be different
7.
Comfort Zone 05:02
Comfort Zone You’re the kind of spirit that I really need to cage When I see you flying free I fall into a rage Seems I cannot help myself, can’t get off my stage Conversations with you like a preacher to a clan The more I talk I really think the more you’ll understand Break you down word by word to execute my plan I don’t think I ever want to see you without me I don’t think I ever want to have to set you free Know that I’ll take nothing less than all eternity ‘Cause you’re the kind of spirit that I really need to own Take you to the country, lock you down inside a home I will be your family your friends your comfort zone Every fiber in my soul screams that I am right I will bring this love to my control with all my might You’ll become so weary you won’t have the will to fight
8.
The Mokus 03:04
9.
38 by 74 04:51
38 by ‘74 I came back from the war, back in ‘74 I killed 38 men trying to even the score From what went down there’s an echo around See the tear in my eye, I didn’t want them to die You ever kill a man? Henry asked me Take a swig from the bottle, it’ll help you to see You ever kill a man? Well you can catch it in his eye I can hear those men die every night in my dream In and out of the shelters I’m pushed like a ball I roll and I fall, could never stop it all I’m sick and I’m mad at what I could’ve had So just play me a song and I’ll try to forget And he said you got to help to get your brother back on his feet You have to get your sister off of the street You gotta get ‘em both something warm to eat You gotta be as friendly to the others that you meet Gotta be making my rounds, gotta get downtown Get some visual perspective or just stare at the ground I’m quick with a line and my wit is still mine But I’m always on the run from the ghosts in my mind
10.
1,000 05:10
1,000 The sea to my back down there, home to the front The Guard will come from Treasure, hot from the hunt Trails of bills behind broken left and right Cabled down the one way drag tired from the fight Had a job in the Mission saving the world Blew it off like Sunset fog into a flag unfurled Then I hopped through the bars one by one Down China through the North Beach dredge and into the sun I am 1,000, don’t use the shining phones I am 1,000 throw down the bones The sign said in flashing red, slow to 25 They know that’s been my plan since I been alive Once I slept in the Golden Park ‘neath an imported tree Stumbled drunken through the subway walls just beginning to see You can’t run with the big dogs if you piss like a runt You can't take home a kill if you don’t join the hunt You don’t know where the border is until you cross the line Can’t know how deep the water might be until you take the dive I am 1,000, into the broken glass I am 1,000 all things must pass
11.
Rescue 04:46
Rescue Light shatters on the choice you made And you’re in darkness again How many times will you walk this path I have to ask you my friend Can’t reach you, can’t teach you But through the glaze of a thousand days I need you Does it give you sanctuary Does it bring you peace Does it give you a place to rest your bones Five and one day and then you get some sleep But in the meantime, please can you rescue me Always been behind the lines You’ve always taken the lead Yeah but now the roles reverse And you won’t listen to me I change the medium to break the tedium But when you slave to what you crave you feed them So give me sanctuary Give me peace Can you give me a place to rest my bones Five and one day, and then I get some sleep But in the meantime please someone rescue me
12.
Sea of Breath Sometime in the silent sleep Walk with me, Walk with me Shine, let the moment creep Walk with me, Walk with me Sunrise under slippery feet Under time, seek the cool light green Walk with me And I dream a lot Don’t know how to stop I can let you through Show you what to do When the sunlight fades Make your way through the neon blades Not a need for word We already heard Let the pass of day Put us on our way Swim in eye so deep Climb a mind so steep Bring me to the air Sea of breath to share Sea of breath to share

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released June 1, 2010

Produced and Mixed by Paul Lesinski and David Kendall
Recorded primarily at DJK Studios and Isorski Studios
Mastered by Steve Turnidge at Ars Divina/UltraViolet Studios in Seattle
All photos taken by Daniel Lesinski; digital booklet designed by Paul Lesinski

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Paul Lesinski

Paul’s music is a fusion of genres, blending the raw power of classic rock with hints of progressive rock that captivates listeners and takes them on a sonic journey.

Lyrically, Paul reflects the era and concerns of his audience, whether reveling in the opportunity to be the best version of yourself, to lamenting the fractured state of political and social connection.
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